RANSVESTIA

in the wholeness of the individual.

By my own long and often painful experience, I know this to be true. Now, I can see my attraction to things feminine almost as a gift -some- thing that opened doors to me that I never knew existed beyond the barriers of doubt, misinformation and shame.

My "Summer of Discovery" has long since passed and the opportun- nities no longer exist for me to dress as I wish for weeks at a time. Of course I miss them. But, the understanding that came from those unfor- gettable experiences allows me to accept the limitations placed upon me by an equally strong desire to lead a complete life. I will not deny that I am filled with pangs of reluctance when it is time to return the outward manifestations of my lady to the closet. We both know however, that her chance to reappear is not far away.

I set these thoughts and recollections down in the hope that they might be of help to you and that maybe you can avoid some of the an- guish and pain that has filled my FP life. My particular wish is that our younger sisters understand that, as with so many other relationships, contact with that lady inside offers much more than sexual relief. It goes far beyond that.

Why are we possessed of our inclinations? What real meaning do they have in the greater scheme of things? I wonder if we shall ever know.

We do know that the drive IS there. For better or worse, it is part of our person. And, like all other aspects of our being, the difference lies in what we can make of it as individuals.

Editorial Note: This article is a very nice expression of one sisters journey. But as she says it is really every FP's journey only the times, circumstances and details being different between us. For those younger FP's (in either age or development) who are still in the sexual stage I suggest the following. Instead of removing the clothing as soon as orgasm occurs, continue to wear them. When the sexual factor has ically and named her “anima” (as contrasted with animus the mascu- gender factor-your own femininity. When you are sexually aroused you are only a boy or a man in a dress. But when the sexual appetite has been satisfied - as Tecla discovered – the girl within is free to live IF you give her a chance. The girl within IS real. Jung discovered her theoret- ically and named her “anima” (as contrasted with animus the masco-

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